Like many, I wake up and think – I don’t know what to do, I’m not sure I want to get out of bed today. I feel sad, sometimes lonely, I wallow a little in my feelings and then I think, come on Violet, you’ve got this, you’re okay, get up.
And I get up.
And I feel a billion times better as soon as I’m up.
I’m one of the lucky ones. A lovely house, garden, Zoom, god bless Zoom, the internet, friends, dogs, a thousand bees, my vegetable garden, an orange tree and a beautiful lime tree. And I know how bad it is out there in the poor areas, or I don’t really know because I’ve only ever driven past the townships, or done a ‘fabulous walking tour of the townships’ or a ‘a visit the orphanage tour,’ seen media pics or watched the news, but I think I get how bad it is out there.
And I am worried for everyone.
Not everybody has choices, but I do. And I can choose wisely.
I saw a helpful Venn diagram, the one featured above.
There’s a Fear Zone.
A Learning Zone.
And a Growth Zone.
I’m aiming for the Growth Zone. It’s not always easy and of course I go between all the zones. Sometimes I panic. I have been known to buy a few extra rolls of loo paper. I have been known to be a tad judgemental. And I have been known to pop a little extra pill or two.
But as times goes by, and I work at it, I am feeling a little more okay. Still scared, but okay.
I hope that I’m heading to the Growth Zone. I hope that I am going to emerge out of this differently.
Kinder. More compassionate. More empathetic.
I’m hoping for growth.
Not just for my orange and lime trees.
But for me.
For all of us.